Well tomorrow my baby goes to school as a fourth grader. I just can not believe it. And I think it only gets harder to see the first day of school come as the years pass by. I thought the tears would end after Kindergarten started but the only thing that has changed is that now I don't actually go to the school the morning of the first day so Michael can't see me cry. But getting into the car the tears roll.
I have so enjoyed being home with the boys this summer....I should have been a teacher! :) Not really. Wanted to when I was growing up but the Lord definitely knew better! Michael has driven me crazy this summer but I wouldn't change it for the world. I can read his attitude, know exactly what is going to make him mad, know that after that activity is over his 'anger high' comes back down, know that he loves his brother know matter what else irritates him, realize that I didnt avoid the "Why?" stage it just came about 6 or 7 years later than I expected, and know that I am super blessed to have the boys and husband that I have. No matter how much Michael and Terry irritate each other, or how much they love the baby, or how for granted they take everything I do around the house, or whether the house is clean I know they are the perfect family for me!
Getting back to the school schedule will take time tho. I am so glad I have 2.5 weeks of it before I have to go back to work.
Chance is 9 weeks old this week. He had his two month appt today...three shots...ugh! I think I cried harder than he did! Michael held his ears because he hates to hear him cry hard and Terry just talked to Chance while I held his legs so they wouldn't squirm for the nurse. I hate to think we have to do it all over again in two months! He is doing fine tonight but he needed extra love and cuddling today. And I didn't mind at all! He is nearly 26 inches long and 15lb 2oz. Off of the charts in both areas but that is ok according to the doc! He is such an amazing little boy. I have learned so much in the last ten years since Michael. I have grown so much as a mother and a person and I am so glad the Lord worked it out this way. 9 years ago I thought my world was falling apart and now I am so glad He had everything in HIs control!
Thank you Lord!
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What a beautiful post and what a blessed life you have! God is so good! :-) xoxo
ReplyDelete*tears...I can remember you saying, multiple times, "if I didn't have Michael, I would want to die" many years ago. I have spent much time wondering why you have had it so rough all these years. But it is only bad because we make it bad. All those trials have turned you into the person you are today and the mom that baby needs. And knowing that the whole time, GOd knew exactly what was going on and had planned it all out just for you, is such a great position to be in. Love you Jess!
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